Making excuses

I'm in a constant fight, willing to have your sight,
this greyish fire that grows inside,
keep your light, keep it tight please, close to mine,
share your thoughts, throw a kiss, blow my mind,
share a glance, eye to eye, makes us bright,
hold my hand, in your cheek, no more pride,
all these feelings I can't hide
when I'm with you by my side,
Is it wrong? Is it right?
I don't care, I wanna try, and
if fail I'll know I tried, I'll
keep my head up through the night.

I feel you like my own extension
an expansion of my world,
my brain is in fast motion
while I'm trying to win my war,
I crave for interactions
for your voice or for your words,
I can not low my passion
and I wouldn't if I could,
you're rythm and I'm verses
when I'm versus my own doom,
I'm inversing my fears
and inmersing on you,
I'm trying to climb the sky
just to bring to you the moon.

I don't wanna be rotten,
don't wanna be broken,
I seek to be shaken
and to not be forgotten,
I swear that I'm shaking
and I'm acking inside,
I now have forsaken me,
but I swear that I'm panicking,
I'm making excuses
and disusing my chances,

throwing away my shot,

I must take a decision,
even if it doesn't work
I'm nervous, not jealous,
my wounds they are grievous,
I treat me, I heal me,
to not be a virus,
I craft this, improve me
to be safe between us.

I want something healthy,
a little piece of heaven,
I swear that to know you
has felt like three sevens,
I pray to no god,
but god you're astonishing,
you're funny, you're clever
you're cute as a sunshine,
a good song, a good wine,
you're raising my fever,
I'm eager to show you,
but I'm afraid you won't like it,
I'm erasing my fears
but I still need to work it,
I'll gather my courage
and I'll help with your baggage,
you'll rock it at college
and I'll write you some poems.